2007/11/9 Daily compression of emotion

For the most of this week, I encountered the down term of emotion changes. Like the tidal wave as it goes up and down when the things are keep bothering me. What could I do? I shut my mind of hearing and seeing up.

I couldn't manage to get the way out when it seem like the drainage system has broke down.

So as for the day, I had poured all the things out. The wise ideas for me is to clean my room, tidy up all my clothings, do the laundry, mop the floor...Simply to use up all my energy. It is absolutely a solution to all problems. I get rid of the dirts and dust in mind. As for the day, free burden to go out and have dinner with my loved one. What I found out is that the hunger for days and insomnia had brought me to that extent of " Nuts".

2007/11/7 Dealing emotional changes

Am I a decisive person ? If that is the characteristic of myself, then I will not have any emotional changes much often. I believed that, emotion can be decided as it is a blink of thought in mind.

I hate myself of thinking the negative side. What if...What will that be... all these come into my mind.

How to accept the other's opinion or thought, when you always think yourself is right and correct? No, you can't. Neither do I .

Complying with someone you are afraid, means you don't have character?
No...(nodding)

Just to make the thing better for two to go through.
No argument or judgemental thoughts when two are in fights.

" You don't understand.....", someone said.

Like I said " no one will understand if you don't say or explain it".

So for this moment, anger and furies crossed my mind.

I don't need explanations neither do you need to think of who is right.

For this moment, let me be myself and set me aside.

........................................................................................................likewise, nothing comes to an conclusion for that.

2007/11/5 Indulge

As the title has mentioned, indulge. What can you desire in the life that is full of expectation?In minds that you hardly managed to grip or choose any of the variation you wishes. As for me, perhaps the answer would be indulged with "happiness". All kinds of sensation in daily life such as anger, happiness, sad...excesstras links to one another. Distinguishing the rights and wrong could have been bothering me that much as sometimes people in times protect themselves to keep it a secret. Perhaps it is to stand in the root of relationship. How to deal with that "things"?
What I know is to except it or kick that " mind" out. Focusing on the most important thing out of all the other things will be my priority option. I always sort things out easily as to observe the surrounding atmosphere.
Indulged with love?Or just a compaion in life? Everone needs that in order to be happy. Love, anyone needs love. Love from family,friends,boyfriend or girlfriend...and so on. So can you imagine a life without any expectation or desire to set in the heart to achieve, and that will be a disaster to lead a "meaningless" life. Anyone can indulged with foods, love, books, movies,luxury, cars... perhaps when the time you are doing something that you are superior happy about it right from your heart, hold the moments of it and indulging with it.

Happiness can be the thought for food in our lifes